Whew, after i got those last posts out of my system a lot of the build up of anger i was feeling was released. I am feeling the build up again lol It is almost Christmas after all and my FB feed is filled with testimonies and posts of scriptures, its awful lol. My God the Shame and guilt that members feel for every tiny damn thing is soooooo crazy!!! I think i am finally ready to say it, to embrace it, I am an Athiest. I repeat I AM AN ATHIEST!!!
Ahhhh damn that felt good.
This holiday season has really helped me to realize how i feel and to sort out all the thoughts and feelings i have had. Atheism does not make me an angry, spiteful, lost, soulless person. I had a friend put it into perspective for me once. She said "What if there is nothing after this life, how would you treat people ? At that moment i realized why religion is so awful. Every single time religion is involved people treat others so horribly. We are judgmental, we shame people we think we have the real truth and when we look at others we cant help but see there "sins" With Mormons it is so much worse because if someone drinks coffee or tea oh man that is a sin. If someone wears shorts above the knee or a tanktop oh man how sinful. If someone has a tattoo or " more than one set of modest earrings" oh man SIN! we are programmed to believe that all of these things are so bad and wrong and sinful. We look at these people of the "world" we see the sin and we then have to choose to think and look for things that are great or beautiful about this person and think about how much God must love them. We remind ourselves that they are children of God, but that isnt how to love someone. Why do we always have to jump through hoops to see the good and beauty in people? Without religion it has just come naturally to me!! I see someone with a tattoo and i think oh wow that cool. I dont need to look through blinders to see someone as being good person, or to just think nice things about them. I am not perfect at it, but i am hell of a lot nicer and i like myself so much better this way.
The God in the Bible is such a jerk! He plays games, asking a Father to kill his son as some twisted game then have him Prove his faith?! Wow no thanks. As Richard Dawkins once said " The God of the Old Testament is arguably the most unpleasant character in all fiction; Jealous and proud of it; a petty, unjust, unforgiving control-freak; a vindictive, bloodthirsty ethnic cleanser; a misogyistic, homophobic, racist, infanticidal, genocidal, filicidal, pestilential, megalominiacal, sadomasochisic, capriciously, malevolent bully."
After Moses Dies and Joshua takes over, God sends him on a campaign of genocide. That's not hyperbole, God literally commands the Jews to wipe non- jews off the planet. He sends Joshua's armies out to kill men and women, to dash babies against rocks, to burn the cities and salt the fields, and even to destroy all the property that the gentiles had. Treasure, clothing, livestock you name it. The goal seems to have been to erase all gentiles of any evidence that they ever existed. That is how you serve the God of the Bible.
The Bible is riddled with Mass Murder, So is the BOM. Mormons have changed the vision of who God is and who Jesus Christ is. They try to paint this picture in your head of an all loving, gentle person who loves his Children but they ignore the stories in there scriptures of God being a jerk!
I just cant get behind religion. If there is a God he i will have to not care one ioda about us serving him because there is to many lies and horrible things for us to sort through. I will not spend another second of my life serving a God, i will focus on what is right here in front of me. My family, my friends, my community. I will cherish every memory and encounter with those that i love. I will strive to better myself in ways that i choose to because that makes me happy. I will shed myself of Guilt and shame for my choices. I will love people for who they are and not recognize there "sin" as religion would have me do. I will experience happiness on a whole new level while in this life.
Religion sucks! I hate what it does to people. I am SO GRATEFUL I GOT OUT! I hope more people can find the truth, and find there own way.
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